A person sitting on a bench in a forest clearing, looking out at the bright sky through tall trees.

Mindfulness

I learned a new way to think about mindfulness from watching a German dark comedy series on Netflix this month. Mindfulness is when what’s happening in your mind matches whats happening with your body. 

I guess the opposite of being mindful is being mindless.

Also, the opposite of multi-tasking is single-tasking. It takes mindfulness to do a single task. So then, what if multi-tasking is a form of mindlessness.

I’ve noticed how much happier and less anxious I am when I’m successfully exercising mindfulness and single-tasking. My brain feels less like a sieve. I have a better chance of remembering all the names of the singers in my choir when I practice mindfulness (I’m frequently embarrassed by blanking out on the names of students and adults I’ve known for years!). 

It’s a struggle. 

How easily distracted I am.
And how stubborn I am about feeling the need to multi-task. 

I don’t need to do it all, and I don’t need to do it (whatever “it” is) right now.

Sometimes, “now” is the time I take to do just one thing with my whole mind and body. I’m trying to create that “now” every day.


Surgery update:  Success!

Thank you all so much for your warm wishes and support as I recovered from abdominal surgery. My surgeon says I should still avoid heavy lifting for a couple more weeks, but I got the green light to ride roller coasters. See you on Ghost Rider at Knott’s Berry Farm!


Conducting

Summer is on its way.
Get ready to sing 
Carmina Burana with me!


Harvard-Westlake Spring Choral Concert


Composition

The Summit is Nigh
Now Available!
Here’s a sample:


For Fun

Practicing mindfulness while on a spontaneous walk through the lovely CalTech campus


Curled up in the bed with Archie on my feet



What’s on your mind?

Overhead shot of various mugs filled with different types of coffee and cocoa drinks, from dark black coffee to creamy lattes.

MEET UP

I would like a chance to meet up with you in small groups this summer so we can celebrate and support each other. Let me know if there’s a spot near you (within Los Angeles County) that would be a great place to meet up for coffee or a beer together.


ACDA Report

What was I doing at the 2025 ACDA National Conference, March 18-22? (See pics below…)


1. Went to Bent-But-Not-Broken 3.5 – a whole conference within a conference!


2. Hosted a Black Diaspora Immersion Choir session


3. Witnessed the inaugural National HS Vocal Jazz Honor Choir performance – my HW student was one of 16 high schoolers chosen from across the country.


4. Was a Music in Worship panelist with some of the most inspiring colleagues I’ve ever worked with.


5. Met fans and friends at a MusicSpoke Composer meet-n-greet session


6. Saw a concert that was so impossibly good, it redefined the meaning of choral excellence 

7. Had dinner and drinks with fabulous friends

8. Went to more great concerts


9. Hugged dear friends and mentors, sang, and took pictures at the “Cookout” Black diaspora reception


10. Laughed my ass off at the CSULB reception


11. More amazing concerts


12. Sang the solo on my piece “Truth” during the National Concert series reading session

13. Conducted my piece “Karitas á Four” during the MusicSpoke reading session

14. Conducted my piece “Veni Sancte Spiritus” for the Music in Worship Deep Dive experience


15. Participated as a reader for the Music in Worship service


16. Heard world premieres of two of my works: “Dedication” with the 8-10th grade National SSAA Honor Choir and “The Summit in Nigh” with the 11-12th grade SATB National Honor Choir.


17. One last incredible concert!


For Fun

Watching Carmina Burana at Disney Hall with Felicity


Curled up kitty cuteness



Who will you connect with today?

Tips for Living with Social Media

3 Strikes

When scrolling, try closing the app and walking away after three irritating posts. Three strikes, I’m out!

Limits

I set a timer for the period of time of my choice. Or, I might commit to only scrolling past 20 posts, or 10 posts, or however many I deem appropriate for my needs at the moment. I’m better when I’m mindful about my time.

Healthy Scrolling

Here are several pages/people that keep me healthy and happy while scrolling on my socials. I try to visit 5-10 of these each day (unless the three-strikes law thwarts my efforts). I like to think it improves my algorithm, too. I also regularly add to, subtract from, and change up this list:

  • Some facet of the American Choral Directors Association
  • Black and Obsessed with K-Dramas
  • Rhythms of the Village Productions (Altadena, CA)
  • A family member or friend whose political views differ from mine but whose life and work I deeply respect.
  • The Zanaida Stewart Robles Singers
  • Neighborhood UU Church or some other spiritual/religious institution to which I’m connected.
  • Harvard-Westlake School or some other educational institution to which I’m connected.
  • An award-winning performing artist or visual artist 
  • Duolingo
  • An award-winning athlete
  • A family member or friend that I absolutely adore

Upcoming Events

Live in the Lounge: HERS Music Ensemble

The Ebell of LA is proud to present to you a curated voice salon featuring the works of Los Angeles women composers by Hers: Music Ensemble, a newly formed group dedicated to the empowerment and uplifting of musical artists who identify as female. For this special evening at The Ebell, award-winning vocalists Karen Hogle Brown and Tamara Bevard will present vocal selections by celebrated LA composers including Reena Esmail, Zanaida Robles, Dale Trumbore and many more.

Join us for a curated voice salon that will celebrate the amazing creations of musical art happening right in our own beloved city.

Tuesday, March 4, 2025
7:30 PM


For Fun

Fun times in Louisville as Guest Conductor for the Kentucky Music Educators Association SSAA All-State Honor Choir.


New haircut with cool African coat and earrings


Ollie warning me never to travel again


Finally saw the movie “Wicked.” I loved it!
Also, I’m in the credits!…


“Almost everything will work again if you unplug it for a few minutes, including you.”

— Anne Lamott


View the original newsletter for February 2025 online

Resolution

This year, I resolve to intentionally explore physical, mental, spiritual, and emotional health as I strive to be a source of light for the people to whom I’m connected. May your heart, body, mind, and spirit be blessed this new year and always.


Heart

Tuesday, January 8 was one of the scariest nights of my life, as extremely high winds battered our homes. My heart raced all night as the wind whipped up a fire that destroyed several towns, including the nearby town of Altadena. The power went out as the wind loudly tore over our house like a rampaging animal. From my dark bedroom window, I saw flames on the hillside, swiftly advancing over the brush. Every violent wind gust pushed the fires closer; the hills were consumed by flames. I remember praying out loud, pleading for the wind to stop. The fire raged on even as the winds died down and shifted away from us. And while I’m grateful my home and family are safe, the damage to our beautiful city was vast and brutal. I am heartbroken over the loss of my friends’ homes, schools, and churches. So much that was irreplaceable was destroyed. The kindness and generosity of strangers is what gives me hope in times like these. May hope continue to thrive as we help each other find the way back to wholeness.


Body

This past fall I began a journey to improve my health. I constantly felt heavy, tired, and in pain. In addition to various doctor visits and treatment plans for specific issues, I decided to download and use an app to help me track what I eat. It wasn’t that my eating habits were so bad; it’s that they weren’t in alignment with my nutrition goals. The app helps me to be accountable to myself regarding my goals – sometimes I hate that! When I feel overlooked or underappreciated, I want a treat or a reward or an edible comfort. The app affirms my effort, reminds me to stay on track, and helps me get back on when I’ve fallen off. A helpful tool can make a real difference.


Composition

Psalm 61: Hear My Cry

Hear my cry, O God, and listen to my prayer. I call upon you from the ends of the earth with heaviness in my heart. Set me upon the rock that is higher than I.


For Fun

I watched football, ate fried catfish, and created art with my beloved mentor Paul Smith. He taught me a new art technique using paint on tile. I made a “Z,” of course!

A multitude of holidays

Felicity is learning to drive.

A note I found from Santa on Christmas morning

Archie is not modest.

The new heated cat bed is a hit!

May your new year contain more joy than sorrow.

Merry Christmas!

May you be joyful. May you be at peace. May you be in the company of loved ones. May you celebrate all 12 days, if you feel like it. May you celebrate Kwanzaa, Hanukkah, New Year’s, and all times in which we experience love, awe, and gratitude. May you be amazed and inspired today and in the days to come.


Surgery update

It got postponed. Bad news: I had a mental and emotional breakdown over this whole snafu and will have to wait for god-knows-how-long before I can have my surgery.

Good news: I’m intact and above ground for Christmas and New Year’s! 


Composition

My new album “Ecstatic Expectancy” is now available on all major streaming platforms. Many thanks to everyone who met up with me and purchased physical CDs at our album release events. Want more CDs? Visit me in person on Sundays at Neighborhood UU Church in Pasadena right after the 10am service. And stay tuned for more meet-ups!


Conducting

Come watch me conduct my original Christmas carol “Now the Rejoicing” for choir, piano, and organ at 8pm on Christmas Eve at Neighborhood UU Church in Pasadena.


For Fun

On Thursday December 19, the Harvard-Westlake Jazz Singers performed at Homeboy Industries for the morning meeting with Father Greg Boyle!


(Event photo by Danny Moloshok of Moloshok Photography)

The ETM-LA Gala on December 6 was incredible! I’m so honored to have received their “Shining Star Award” as an educator. The Harvard-Westlake Jazz Singers performed exquisitely with pop star SYML and award-winning film and television composer Blake Neely. The video below is the short film that was shown at the gala:


Goat yoga for the holidays…


…and…more Christmas antics!


Happy Holidays, everyone!


Originally published as Zanaida’s December 2024 email letter – Click here to read online