“I am ready. I am loved. And I have everything I need…”

… is the opposite of what I think and feel most of the time. It seems like this past month has been full of lessons about about endurance and faith. At the forefront of my consciousness this morning is that drive to Santa Monica I need to make… like, right now. I’ve been thinking of Daniel Chaney everyday because I love him and he’s in hospice right now. I think “I’m not thinking of the right things right now! I am supposed to be thinking something else!”
Stop.

Right now, I am ready and I have everything that I need. And so does Daniel. So do my colleagues in Santa Monica. And my car has a full tank of gas, and I have plenty of time to get where I’m going because I intentionally planned ahead yesterday. My priorities ARE in order because all those things about which I think I am supposed to be thinking, those things are ALWAYS in my consciousness. I know that whether I succeed today or not, I am worthy of love everyday, and so are all of us. I get a new chance to do right everyday, and so do all of us. I get a new set of hours everyday, I can choose how to make the most of them without being “wrong.” And so can all of us.

I arrived at this understanding this morning because people I care about have been telling me to “Stop.” My support system has been telling me to stop and listen; to be mindful; to pray; to be in relationship with my thoughts and my surroundings; to respond less and listen more. And this morning, I actually chose to try it.

I think I actually meditated!

I might be a teeny tine bit late today (probably not though), but I actually MEDITATED for 5 minutes this morning!! And meditating made me feel like I was ready for the day, that I am loved no matter what, and that I had everything I need to be successful today. Meditation/Mindfulness/Communion with God: whatever you call it, I think it’s a gold mine.

This piece first appeared in Zanaida’s March 2017 newsletter.
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